I think that one of the most consistent things our brain likes to do to us is remind us of the good things we give up for one reason or another.
Unfortunately, it seems like we tend to remember the things we've given up when we realize we still haven't replaced the empty space we created. When we have something to fill the void things seem a lot less vacuous then when you've got a big hole and you can't seem to fill it.
Sometimes, it's hard to live with your actions, even if you think that you had a good reason for the things you've done, simply because you miss the idea of having. We do so much just to have. Utilitarianism would say that we act to bring ourselves pleasure, but I think we act in order have things. We act in order to collect all the pieces we still need.
It's like everybody is trying to solve a jigsaw puzzle, but nobody has the pieces.
I thought there was a girl I liked at RIT, but it turns out she was a cold, bitter person at heart. Incidentally, if you ever like someone, never let yourself see them drunk. People tell the truth when they're drunk, and when it comes down to the truth of the matter, it seems like most people are assholes.
It's frustrating that I haven't really found anyone I'm too terribly interested in at RIT yet. It makes me feel a little...hollow. Does that make sense? I almost miss the emotional tumult of high-school romance (hah). At least then something happened. Right now I just feel like I'm sitting in the desert waiting for high tide to come in.
(Even the desert needs the rain.)
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Maybe everything we do is because of chemicals in our brain reacting in different ways based on other chemicals, though that would surely limit philosophical discussions.
I suppose I wouldn't mind finding someone who's an asshole in all the same ways I am. Of course, he wouldn't seem like an ass to me then.
You'll find someone! Being bored is better than being heartbroken, anyway.
I think that it's good that you saw what she was truly like, even though it was disappointing.
^ I think that's probably true. Better to find out now than later, I guess... I feel like getting drunk makes a lot of people assholes though, so who knows.
But yeah, it kind of sucks not liking anyone. I definitely know what that's like... four years of high school and I haven't liked anyone. So that's fun.
Alright, I'm clearly not helping by being bitter so I should probably just go...
I definitely get where you are coming from. In a weird way, it feels like it would be better to have unrequited love than no love at all. I totally, totally get you.
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